My Lord,
Last night I had a freaking awesome good time! My daughter and I went to see Chris Tomlin and Tenth Avenue. The building was on fire for YOU! The Holy Spirit is alive and active!!!!!!
Not only did I not know that I had gotten paid on Friday, but as I wrote down all the bills and payments that were due, there was an excess. I paid on my credit card and I transferred some money into my savings account.
I just kept looking at my balance and thinking about how AMAZING You are to me and how YOU continually put money in my account. I still had money left over from the last pay period.
I kept thinking, "Okay, have I paid everything? I'm certain that something's going to come up. Just watch."
These were thoughts that were dancing in my head!
I remember asking you for a nap, thinking, if I get a nap before the concert that I could last the entire night! I was so enjoying myself and so praising You and caught up in the Spirit. Thank you, thank you, thank you!
When Chris took a break in the middle of the concert, I'd assume that he was going to talk about Compassion or World Vision. So, I took out my cell phone to see if Susie or Kristin had texted me. They were there also and Susie wanted to meet T. And while I was looking at my cell, I heard Chris say something about an organization that he and his wife support and work for. [Cure.org] They played a video earlier, but I was still caught up in the excitement, eating french fries and talking with T. I did however see a little boy laughing and dancing so happily. The video appeared to be about children being born with twisted legs and feet. Christ talked about the cost of surgery to heal just one child. My heart leaped.
Then he said that you gave us two commandments; to proclaim the Good News and to heal the sick. Father, I heard that. I was #listening and I was obedient. I heard the amount that he said and I immediately thought about how I'd just finished balancing my checkbook and having an overage. Right in the middle of his new song, I told my daughter that I was going to make a donation.
It felt so AMAZING! And Lord, not because I had the money and not so that I could brag and not so that I could meet Chris and take a pic with him, but because money used to be my stronghold and my idol.
It still did not completely dawn on me until I'd returned to my seat and thought about what I'd just done. Quiet tears began to fall when I thought about the fact that because YOU saved and delivered me, I had just made it possible for one child to have new feet; the gift to run, dance and play! WOW!!!
LORD, YOU are real and You do change lives!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This is not the life that I used to live. My old life was a "what if?" I had to have a "just in case fund." And no one was going to borrow any money from my fund. There was no one to take care of me and my children and I was not letting go of my "money." I laugh when I look back on that "girl and that life."
I so let go of that money/Your money, last night! Oh yes we did bring heailng to one child!!! Lol
(Luke 9:2)
Lord, You reign forever and I believe in You. I believe in your scriptures and I know that YOU love me.
Chris sang this song about you loving him/us and he sang it to those in the audience who weren't sure that they were loved by YOU!
Father, if I don't know nothing anything else...........I know that I am loved by you! And that reason alone makes me want to say that all that I have is #Yours and Lord, I'm listening!!!!!
Waiting for further instructions :-)
Eternally yours
