My Lord,
I just fall deeper in love with you with each passing day. I cannot tell you or express in words how much I love you and what you mean to me. As I was listening to an old recording of Focus on The Family, the speaker reminded me about Psalm 22:10. "From my birth I was cast on you; from my mother's womb you have been my God."
In the past, I remember reading it quite a few times and feeling sad that King David was always aware of the fact that you were His God and I wanted to be in that place of "knowing...." - knowing that you were always my God, always there for me and that you've always known me.
When the speaker was speaking, she referenced Psalm 22:10 as it is one of her favorites and then she explained why. She was a victim of abuse and she remembers always talking to you from her youth. I was a victim of domestic violence and I too remember talking to you inside my heart. I remember so desparately wanting and waiting for you to save me. I remember asking you, "Why is this happening to me? And I remember on numerous occasions, like her, wanting to die.
And then she brought to mind, 1 John 4:19 about You loving us first. "We love because he first loved us."
Again, a verse I've read repeatedly. But it was something about yesterday. Something about being content, in the moment of quiet and stillness and being in your presence. I could feel your love and I could hear you reminding me that you were there. I heard you say, "I was there Denise and I heard you back then. Don't you remember?"
And yes My Lord, I do remember. The voices became crystal clear yesterday. I so remember those conversations with you. However, I don't remember hearing your response. BUT looking at my life today-You were so there and you knew. You knew and you did #SAVE me! As I sit here today loving you wholeheartedly, YOU SO SAVED ME! It was me that came to you at the age of 43, but You were there and have loved me since before my birth. #Pause.....tears..........
Father, you've always known me! And that just melts my heart unlike any love I've ever known.
And thank you for the song "O Glorious Day." I kept crying yesterday while listening to it and in my heart, I know, believe and trust that it will be a Glorious Day when I get to see your face.
And another thank you for this morning. I wasn't in the car for two minutes before I began to weep. Your love completely overwhelms me. I know that you are for me!
Eternally yours,
your princess bride <3
