Thursday, February 5, 2015

I Don't Have The Answer

My Lord,

Good morning and thank you for another amazing new day.  Thank you for the moon that greeted me as I walked to my car and thank you for the faithful rising of the sun.  Again, your mercies are new....just as you promised in Lamentations 3:23.

Father, someone you know is struggling with the death and persecution of many believers around the world as am I.  My Lord, I trust you and I believe in your promises to bring judgement and wrath against those who oppose you.  ALL of my hope is in YOU Father God. 

As you know, this special friend of mine sent me an e-mail asking me to help bring some "understanding" as to what's happening and why?  I am unable to do that and to bring any reasoning to her questions.  Yes, I was a quiet Muslim, but that belief held no real place in my heart and brought me no joy, no peace and no answers as to who god was to me. 

FATHER, it was not until Jesus invited me into an intimate relationship that I began to live.  Your sweet Son and your sweet gospel awakened me.

Here my Lord was my response to her and I pray Father, I deeply pray that others are in prayer, sharing the gospel and holding on to your HOPE!

Good morning beloved sister,
I am sorry for your overwhelming heartache.  I, unfortunately cannot add any insight into what has happened or why.

I was a quiet Muslim for ten years, but there was no real heart connection to that god..  There was no attending of the mosque and there were no prayers that made any significance in my life or the lives of those that I prayed for. The very reason why my marriage ended.

All because I was born to love, honor, worship and praise JESUS as My Lord.  The journey that I took as a Muslim was, I believe, for Jesus to do exactly what He is doing in my life today and that is like you said, to give me a fire and a burning passion for Him.
MY LOVE FOR HIM IS SO GREAT, because not only were my sins MANY, but I worshipped a false god....although unknowingly....my heart wept when I discovered that He, Jesus, was and it the One true God and the only God!

I read the Koran but I just couldn't grasp it or understand it and became frustrated.  So in my journey as a Muslim, all I did was pray that no one would ask me about my religion because then, I'd have to try to explain something that I never really had in confidence in.  I was lost, alone and afraid until my ex-husband came in and talked to me about "his religion."  Wanting something and searching most of my life, I took on his god as my own.

I prayed many prayers in his name but it was JESUS who covered me, knowing that I was on my way to giving him my heart and my life!

THIS was for me: It even says #her :-)
"I tell you, her sins--and they are many--have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love."

I literally crave the reading of His word and immensely treasure my alone time and intimacy with Jesus.  It's unlike anything I've ever experienced in my life.  It is surely the Holy Spirit that dwells in me and draws me nearer with each passing day and with each promise and truth that I read.  If we do not purpose our heart to read, meditate and study His word, we will have much disappoint, frustration, uncertainty, fear and pain in this life's journey.  It leaves vulnerable to what the word is "doing" and what seems and appears to be the norm.  And not to mention what a field day that it gives the enemy of our souls.  Satan rejoices in the fact that we are weak in our faith and that we are sure about our salvation and the fact that this "Jesus" that we claim to be ours, just may not be our Redeemer.

Many are not attending their local church (not you, because of your unique situation) but we have such an overwhelming gift and ability of praising and worshipping the Lord publicly and sadly, many are not in church, not reading His word and falsely believing that "I'm saved and now that that's done, I can get back to my life."  Sister it's just not the case. 

Mark 8:35 "For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me and for the gospel will save it."

I love you and I am lifting you in prayer.

We cannot get stuck in the "why things happen." That will take us away from the WHO is in charge of it all.
Deuteronomy 32:35-36 "‘Vengeance is Mine, and retribution,
         In due time their foot will slip;
         For the day of their calamity is near,
         And the impending things are hastening upon them.’ “For the LORD will vindicate His people,
         And will have compassion on His servants,..."

 
I heard something so profound on the radio the other day.  A man was heartbroken because his dad had passed away and he did not accept Christ as his Savior.  The Christian counselor told him that the #Believer's way to accepting things outside of our control is this:

Live your life believing that it's true as opposed to living life trying to prove that it's not.

And in regard to that, he was saying that we have way too many questions and spend idle time searching for answers.  Many answers that we will not received until we get to Heaven, and even then, once we see Our Savior's sweet face, all the questions will fade.

I'm quietly grieving in my heart for the persecution of many of our brothers and sisters, as well as the many lives that have been taken in my law enforcement career.  Not to mention loved ones and friendships.

ALL we can do and it may sound trite, but PRAYER is still the answer, until He returns for us, we must remain steadfast in prayer. 

James 5:16 "The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective."

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 "
 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."

Sister, we have to also remember two things: the more we spread and share the gospel, the bigger our prayer circle becomes.  We have to keep Matthew 28 in our minds and in our hearts, and we must tell the lost who Jesus is.

#verses 18-20 "And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

We also have to have a heart of rejoicing (even) in times of heartache and distress, because we HAVE HOPE and a SAVIOR!

1 Thessalonians 4:13 " Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope."

I love you and I'm so very glad that we are friends and sisters in Christ.

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Jesus, please comfort her and us with your loving kindness and faithful presence as we continue to live our lives pleasing to you; remaining steadfast in faith and prayer.  We cannot do it alone and we hold tight the the promise that you will never leave us nor forsake us.

Eternally yours