Thank you for loving me and for deeply knowing me. I am so very grateful that my desire to be a godly wife doesn't burn within me. I'm so grateful to be 50 and content in this season of my life and it's because you fulfill all of my longings. Since my healing and forgiveness concerning my failed marriage, there have been many questions and day dreams and dates in between...but overall, it is not something that consumes me and it is not something that keeps me up at night. I love you and I completely trust in your timing. It is my heartfelt prayer that all the single women hoping, praying and searching for a mate/man to possibly comfort and/or complete them...Jesus, I pray that you would gift them with a new desire, and heated passion for your word...a thirst beyond anything that they've ever known possible in hopes to go deeper in their relationship with you. Nothing and no one on this earth can compare to being intimately known and loved by the One who created us and the One who knows our every need. So again, I pray for the single ladies to be very careful of what they are praying for and be even more cautious about their motives concerning "those" prayers.
Exhale....
On another note, My Lord, the storm yesterday was so intense and so filled with your presence. I'm always reminded of how you calmed the storm when you were in the boat with your disciples and I'm always reminded about your conversation with Job when you revealed yourself to him during (his storm). But the biggest voice that overtakes me is the voice that says, "in the midst of this...BE STILL and KNOW That I AM GOD." Yes, that voice is the one that calms me when the seas are raging against the shore and the wind is thrusting against my balcony doors. I take great comfort in the promise that a rainbow is present somewhere in the background and it is a steadfast reminder that You are a God who cannot lie.
I was on the phone withe Melanie and she said that there was a double rainbow in the sky right in front of her. I was so excited as if I were there too. I've seen countless reminders of your promise, so when she voiced that delight, I was "so there mentally."
And Dad, speaking of Melanie: Thank you for gifting me with her presence. She is without a doubt my strong and wise sister and she was my silent prayer many years ago when I did not know you. As I quietly poured out my heart, longing for "that kind" of friend, you were behind the scenes piecing it all together. She recently wrote me the most amazing letter and the most profound statement pierced my heart beyond words. I cried, as it was straight from your word---only she got the "line" from a movie....The Joy Luck Club." And although that's where she chose to take her verbiage from, you and I know that it was indeed Holy Spirit inspired. That's is exactly how you operate. You know me and you've always known me. I have no doubt whatsoever that that will ever change. Yes, I delight in that fact immensely.
Below is the reason that I was lost in your word. This photo was the landscape for my bible study yesterday and again, I thank you that I find great delight in this new journey. I even surprised myself as I went directly into my study when I arrived home. I was so in awe of reading many verses that I'm sure I've read on more than one occasion in the past, but because I asked you in advance to reveal yourself to me...Father, you are doing just that. I love how you answer my prayers. I believe in You, truly I do.
Eternally yours
