Last night was AMAZING. I still cannot believe that precious gift you've given me. Funny, as I type that sentence, I was talking about the beach house, but now, I'm reminded of your beautiful undeserving gift of Mercy, Grace and Salvation.
Last night as I walked along the ocean's floor, my cup runneth over. I was walking with my music blasting in my iPhone and hitting the pavement like a recruit in the Army. And something in me began to slow down. I realized that my footsteps were louder than the waves. I removed my ear buds and turned my steps down a notch.
The incredible peace was breath taking. As couples walked hand in hand, dog lovers walked with their companions and the fishermen patiently awaited that last catch of the day, I was content. The stars were so close it seemed as if I could reach out and touch one. Too beautiful to behold, I didn't even try. I'd much rather admire them up there than to possess one. My smile had nothing on the night's sky. It was so beautifully lit, that I was longing to photograph it. I did capture a shot with my iPhone but just to savor the moment. It wasn't as clear a picture as the real thing, but in my heart, I know what it represents.
It will be a reminder of your gift to me. The one where I had no idea whatsoever that you were preparing for me. And the thing that brings tears to my eyes is the fact that you were preparing it way before I decided to let the house go and trust you to move me someplace safe. Long before I created my "list" for Max and myself. The one where we had to have a small yard, a one car garage for my motorcycle and at least 2 bedrooms. Oh, and don't forget that we wanted a washer and dryer and lots of windows. Lol
I just laugh when I think about me and my "list." A friend recently told me that I wasn't a Free Spirit if I was going to live by my list. I laughed about it and now, the thought continually stays in the back of my mind. I think it's a part of my make up to write down "stuff", the pros and cons, the just in case...
But he's right, why do I need a list when your list overrides mine? I know you look at me and shake your head with laughter. A small voice in my head keeps hearing you say, "Dear sweet child, you haven't seen anything yet." I know that to be true and that's exactly why the smile on my face is always as wide a sea just outside my window.
And that's exactly why this song is forever in my heart. I'll never forget where I was when I heard it!
Lord I Believe in You by Crystal Lewis -
Though I can't see Your holy face
And Your throne in heaven above
It seems so far away
Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands
I have a deep and unspeakable joy
That makes my faith to stand
Lord, I believe in You
I'll always believe in You
Though I cant see you with my eyes
Deep in my heart
Your presence I find
Lord, I believe in You
And I'll keep my trust in You
Let the whole world say what they may
No one can take this joy away Lord, I believe
