My Lord,

big smile today.  it's friday for me. yay!

the moon was so bright today and yesterday.  if all the lights were out, you'd still shine as bright as day.  i love that about you.  you will always light my path.  that i trust and believe.  not because your word says so, but because i'm living proof.  you're continually changing me day-by-day and i will not resist.  my deepest prayer is that you discipline me accordingly and keep my pride in check.  let this life not be about me in any way but that in all i say and do brings honor and glory to your name.  i cried and prayed that prayer last night and i feel the need to reiterate this morning.

speaking of prayer, last night we were in chapter 8 of daniel.  i missed the past three weeks of bible study due to shift change and being sick.  the pastor was out of town and they studied haggai in his absence, so i didn't fall behind. 

daniel's prayer was so powerful and while reading it, i couldn't help but simultaneously think about my prayers and my petitions to you.  they are in no way as eloquent as his and funny, just as i type that i'm reminded of a quote i once read.  not sure if it's verbatim, but it went something like. "i cannot write a book like shakespeare, but i can write a book about me." i take that to mean, just do me and not someone else.

i say all that to say that i may not pray exactly as daniel did, but i do feel as though i pray with my whole heart and i do seek to see your face and to hear your will. i would like to believe that my prayers are not generic and that you know the words and feelings that i'm trying to convey.  you know that my heart aches for the lost, and that i don't want anyone i know or love to go to hell. i don't want anyone to go for that matter. 

when we studied revelation last month, i cried uncontrollably at the thought that some will out right reject you in the final days.  how can that be?  why would a person reject the love, peace, grace, mercy and salvation of our awesome god?

deep breath...

eternally yours