My Lord,

As I sit in your presence, I am once again humble and grateful. Our walk this morning was so good for my spirit. Just being in your presence, just the two of us, so fills my soul. I know that it sounds silly and I know that it may even sound as if I'm running from something, but truly, my soul finds rest with you. There are countless times that I have no desires to be of this world. You draw me so near and the more I get to know you, the deeper the longing to stay.

Yes, I know that ultimately you and I will meet face-to-face, but oftentimes, I thirst for you in a mighty way. I still, at times, find it hard to believe that your ability to rescue me, recreate my life and remove my deepest longings was planned so very long ago. You answer prayers in a time frame that humans simply cannot comprehend, and that is one of countless reasons why you are God. Our ways are not your ways, and our thoughts are not your thoughts.

My Lord, you removed something in my life that was causing somewhat of a barrier between you and I and for that, I hug you with my entire being. However, now, there is something on my heart that needs your guidance. You know that when I started my Thursday night bible study that our first assignment was to write out our heart's desire to you. With pen in hand, it seemed as if I was writing from a place deep within. Not from the surface of what I initially thought I wanted. You are my heart's desire, and please know that with everything that I am and with everything that has happened over the past few months, I have not wavered one bit in wanting more of You.

My sweet son, Alex, said something so powerful and so true that I hadn't realized it until he verbalized it to me. We were talking last Sunday about life, love and relationships, and he said, "Ma, you've been faithful." He did not know this, but silent tears fell. Number one, he was right and number two, that means I'm showing him that my walk with you is true and loyal. He noticed that about me and not only did I feel like a humble servant, I felt like a proud mother. My son sees my faithful commitment to you. And that my Lord, is me seeking you with all my heart, praying for strength and guidance not only day-by-day, but minute-by-minute.

Eternally yours