My Lord,

I was reading over your love letters today and each time, with each promise, quiet tears began to fall.  Sometimes still can't believe how much you love me.  Today, just being still, trying to mentally and physically prepare myself for the day, I truly found rest in you.  I always do, but oftentimes, when the body is too weak to move, we have no choice but to be still with our thoughts.

Your promises are so very sweet, so comforting and so true.  My past and my present have merged and created a woman that I simply adore.  Overtime, I've accepted the fact that I am worthy of your love, your forgiveness and your grace. I know that nothing I do will separate the love you have for me.  I will make mistakes and I will certainly continue to sin. We all will while covered in the flesh, but having the ability to seek you, repent and wholeheartedly receive your cleansing is priceless.

Looking back on my journal dated October 19, 2011, you said, "I never want you to feel like you have to earn my affection; nothing you have said or done can or will change the way I feel about you.  Allow your soul to settle and become one with me." That last sentence brings me such indescribable peace.

I remember crying and being stuck in that moment for quite sometime.  The old me was so hell bent on proving myself to others that it was draining.  No one ever told me that I wasn't good enough. It was a lie that Satan put into my head.  Not having to earn your affection... deep breath. Luck me.

Eternally yours