My Lord,

You have altered my plans and here I sit in your presence. Awesome you, grateful me. You continue to reveal yourself in so many ways. For instance, while driving to work this morning, I was listening to my iPad music library and three songs came on. The first two reminded me of the men in my life and took my thoughts to past memories of life's lessons learned and a tiny bit of regret. And then the third song resonated with me and brought tears. It was Crystal Lewis singing God's Been Good To Me. And Lord, you have. In spite of myself, my sin and my moments of uncertainty, you have proven faithful time and time again.

I pray that I rest in that sentence-time and time again. I need you. No if, ands or buts about it. This life is not meant for me to go it alone and you know that I have tried with all my might to prove that I can do "it." The outcome is so not how I planned it.

Never thought or even dreamt of being a divorced 47 year old cop living on the beach. Nor did I see myself content with my singleness and passion about Jesus. Thank you for taking the wheel and allowing me to rest in the passenger's seat. I so needed to catch up on some much needed R & R.

I just ask one favor of you. When I feel the need to take over, please remind me that I have no idea of where I'm going and to leave the driving to you. The one who designed the map.

Eternally yours