My Lord,

Good morning and thank you.

I have had such a weekend filled with revelations and epiphanies.  Talking out loud really helps.  I remember how difficult that used to be for me, but with you, I am healed and I continue to heal.  Sharing myself with others has helped me to see who I truly am and staying under your covenant will help me to become who you've created me to be.

For so much of my life, my diary was my one and only true friend.  As I share, talk and listen to others, I can clearly see how my small circle of friends was built on my allowing and not allowing certain people into my life.  I used to claim that I had four sisters and two girlfriends and that that was good enough for me.  But in reality, it wasn't and in all honesty, those few individuals didn't know my truth because I was still discovering it myself.

This morning was the big WOW moment.  Listening to Christian radio has strengthen my walk with you and has helped me to see my oftentimes, isolated way of thinking.  I'd like to call it my protective shell.  I am after all, a cancer, and the shell is or was my claim to fame.  I could hide myself in it and not come up for air.  Yes, I came out here and there for necessary reasons, but to socialize and participate in the real world, no way. 

Thank you for showing me in a gentle and profound way that this life is certainly not about me and my subtle way of controlling the situation(s) is only hindering what you truly have planned for me.  And for me to let go and let things naturally unfold.

Also, on another note-thank you for that beautiful, breath taking view yesterday.  While on the way to Sierra's competition, the sky was absolutely amazing.  It looked like a lake in the sky.  So much so, that it bought tears to my eyes.  You are truly with me wherever I go and how I went 43 years without knowing you is still beyond me. 

Eternally yours