My Lord,
As you know, 1st and 2nd Kings had me in tears. I couldn't get the words out of my head. All I kept hearing was, "they did evil in the eyes of the Lord..." I kept weeping. I don't want to be that person. I don't want to know you...have seen and witnessed your goodness and your POWER and then turn away from you. I don't want to go back to who I used to be and I don't want to have your anger burn toward me. I cry out to YOU now, asking that you not let me get to that point. PLEASE MY LORD, please discipline me with your love! I cannot imagine me straying away from your commands, precepts, statute and laws...I cannot imagine me delighting in idolatry. BUT Father, I am a sinner trying to live a life of obedience. My life is a beaming light...this I know because I have spent intimate time with you; at your feet, longing to hear from you and longing to please you, BUT, I know that there are times when I will fall short. IN THOSE MOMENTS MY LORD, please bring me back into a relationship with you. I do not want to grieve the Holy Spirit.
You word was so heavy these past few days that I had to take a break. I watched the Mentalist on DVD and just relaxed as I watched the sunset. I love you and I need you as much as the air that I breathe. Thank you for giving me moments of peace in the midst of chaos and thank you for allowing me to delight in some of the things that tend to temporarily take my mind away from the fact that we are the Israelites but in a different generation. Yes, the same sins, the same evil and the same wicked and selfishness...BUT My Lord, I PRAISE YOU because you are still the same Gracious, Compassionate, Understanding, Loving, Gentle, Faithful and AWESOME God from the beginning of Genesis. Nothing is new to you. You know those that will remain faithful and you know those who will turn away from you. You are so amazing that you even know those who will come running back to your love.
I love you and I pray with my whole heart that I am the one who will remain faithful. YOU have blessed me and my family more that I ever asked, wanted or knew possible and certainly more than I deserve. #GRATEFUL ME!
PRAYERS: Father, please be with my sister Marty and her health. Please care for her as only you can. In your Son's precious and perfect name. Amen.
PS. Please watch over the grangirls on their way to school, during school and on their way home from school. I love you and I trust them into your hands.
Eternally yours
