My Lord,

Happy Rainy Friday.  I had no idea it was supposed to rain today.  I just spoke with my dad and he asked about the weather.  I said that it was dreary and drizzling on the outside, but inside my car, it was sunny and happy.  I was driving and talking on my cell.  Yes, I know it was wrong, but I was having one of those moments where I needed to hear my father's voice. 

Lord, I am forever grateful to you for bringing me together with my birth dad.  The relationship that we have is one that I longed for ALL my life.  Having him call me sweetheart is the second sweetest sound to my ears.  Jesus being the first.  I am the luckiest girl in the world.  Although I am single, I have your eternal love, the love of my dad, my son and my brother.  Yay me!

Speaking of my brother, he called me yesterday and surprised me.  He is in town and we are meeting this morning to tour Washington, DC.  Of course he's late, but he's always late.  So not like me or my dad.  He must have gotten that trait from his mom. Lol

I'm super excited and my heart flutters awaiting the chance to hug him and hear his voice in person.  We met in 2003 and it was as if we'd always known one another.  I have always, and I mean always felt as though I had a brother out there in the Universe.  I used to feel like once I discovered my birth dad, people would have said, "Your dad was a great guy."  But because of your grace and mercy, you have shown me that for myself.  I love you for that, beyond many, many other reasons.

I'm off today and I just wanted to post a special thank you.  Thank you for the sunny days that we've been experiencing.  Thank you for the ability to walk.  I've been walking on the boardwalk a lot lately and it's truly something that we take for granted.  Our society is so consumed with "things" that we don't have the time, or should I say that we don't take the time to bask in a walk with you.  That is one of my sacred rituals where I feel so close to you.  We share and laugh and even cry in those moments.  You always hear me out, without interruption and you make me feel as though my feelings matter.  Most humans aren't listening and are so eager to say what they have to say.

You my Lord, are so much apart of my life, that I cannot imagine a single day of not speaking with you, worshiping you and wanting to hear from you.  It would be a complete moment of darkness for me if that were to happen.  My smile would completely disappear. 

The pastor was speaking this morning about your peace.  I was thinking to myself that I can't remember a sad day, a stressful day or a day where I just felt completely alone or overwhelmed.  I truly give that credit to you God.  As we talked about in bible study, most Christians are in a comfort zone and a so called "tradition" where they believe that since they know you and are saved, so the work is over.  Little do they know that it's just begun...

I for one feel like if I do not read your word continually, Satan will know and come after me.  He is always on the watch in attempt to steal my joy and my peace.  I will not allow him the pleasure.  I cannot give in to what he offers this world.  I have no desire whatsoever to sample his way of life.  I did that for many, many years in my past and it "NEVER" worked out for me.  Surrendering to You has freed me from having to constantly repair my brokenness and my ability to trust in others.

Deep breath...

Lord, I trust in you and my JOY is complete.  With you, my life, my future and my eternity is secure.  Again, yay for me!

Eternally yours