My Lord,

deep breath...

i just love when i come here.  i feel so isolated from everything and everyone.  i know that you are everywhere, all the time, but there are some sacred places where i feel as if it's just you and i-when i'm in my car, when i'm home, when i go for walks and when i come here to write. such a feeling comes over me when i grasp all the days, nights and moments that i missed with you in my youth and as i began to transition in woman.  all the struggles, mistakes, shame and disappointments cause me to still shed a tear from time to time.  your grace, mercy and continued presence in my life fills me in excess.

i only pray that my life and my walk in your truth will lead someone to want to know you, call on you and share in all the fullness you offer.  and as i type that sentence, i'm reminded of a memory verse from bible study.  i know it's in john, but forget exactly where: "from the fullness of his grace, we have all received one blessing after another."  my lord, i can surely testify to that.  i cannot speak about my life without telling anyone, everyone, how you saved me.  if my blessings from you were to cease today, my heart would remain forever content.

ps - a special thank you for this morning. you reach to the core of me and wrap me in love. silent tears fall...

eternally yours