My Lord,

I'm smiling really wide today.  I'm so grateful that I have your joy in my heart.  That your Holy Spirit comforts me, confirms your word and carries my burdens.  I was driving home from church last night, talking to myself as I often do and with laughter and joy, I was telling you how I will not, I cannot go back on my promise that I made to you.  This time, I will keep my covenant with you.  I have to.  You have blessed my life far more than I deserve and far more than I ever imagined.

I get it.  It took some time, but I finally get it.  I truly believe had you not moved me when you did and isolated me in this sacred place that we share, I would not have heard the quiet stillness of your will.  Yes, I've heard it in the past, but I ignored it.  Here, where we share our most intimate conversations and moments of pure grace and truth, I get it. You truly want the best for me and I find pure delight in that.

I love you for believing in me, loving me and most importantly being patient with me.  Oh my soul surely finds rest in you. 

By the way, thank you for that smile at 2:00 a.m.  I got up to use the potty and there you were, just outside my window in the clouds, smiling on me and covering me with your parental protection. Something I've longed for all my life and never knew just how close you were.

Eternally yours